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kazumazkan
in order to see the truth you must first open your mind - -psychward dodger- I have my regrets and sometimes i wish i were nicer

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drifting in and out of depression

Posted by kazumazkan - November 16th, 2013


i constantly drift in and out of depression some days or weeks im feeling just bad then others im good, a ok, just wish i can keep my mind on track and keep a positive attitude positive state of mind and keep a good clean mind, but that seems hard sometimes, can't wait till my house gets rebuilt and i get settled down i can get better in my mind, i would like to go back to church and its a something me and my mom would like to do and become and feel new again spiritually and overall .

discuss and or discuss the problems you have

drifting in and out of depression


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Honestly, I have the same problems. It's quite frustrating.

sure is

I'm having trouble improving my drawing skills.... :(

they say practice makes perfect but I draw like crap now I used to draw good when I was younger
and I wonder where it all went

pink floyd are not that good faget

Oh look a shit talker

Ur shit

I love you too.

I'm trying to lern how to animate I'm competely new to it and I still have other areass to improve in with writing and singing :/

Sorry for the late reply but i understand I want to get into animation too but it seems really hard.
along with all the other aspec.ts that involve it

Are you sure you're not just having a shit day or two though? :(

Not really im happy then a thought comes in my head and back to feeling rather crappy but happy is almost always 90%

Yeah, I've had that too, currently on an up swing but life constantly moves from highs to lows. I feel like when I find a purpose I won't have any more trouble like this, but that's hard to do in today's world where meaning is getting filtered out: you can do anything you set your mind to, so I guess it's just about getting in the right mindset..

You said it the best way possible

exercise

Sure

sounds like your life sucks fatty.

sounds like you live a sad life insulting others constantly

I actualy did read it.

Read what.

ok you win a cookie with sprinkles : D

The matrix has you, neo.

so i understand,what do i do?

why is your grammar so bad?

why are you so anal retentive about it?

the fact that i calmly asked it and did not bash you about it proves otherwise

I didnt respond in a angry manner if i did and or seems that i did then im sorry

You should shoot yourself.

Perhaps you should swallow a cyanide pill

Depressions a funny thing. 2 years ago I had severe depression. so severe that I contemplated suicide on more than one occassion, It never got to the stage where I attempted though. There is no reasoning behind depression, not for me anyways. Even though I was quite overweight I didnt feel like that was the source of my depression. I started exercing, eating better and making an attempt to socialize with new people. Im down 40kg and have a much more possitive attitude although thats not to say i dont have personal problems. My mother passed away nearly a year ago and its really affected me. And on this eve of my birthday the only thing I want is a shot gun in my mouth with my toe firmly on the trigger ending my life. And im not even depressed I just have overall feelings of melancholy and apathy. There are good days though and those are the days we live for.Those days where you find something new you enjoy, those days when the girl you like smiles at you, those days where suicide isnt the forefront of your cognitive process. Those days seem less and less the older you get but they still happen, And those are the days we live for. No one said life is meant to be easy.

you can also through stress for me